A year in review prologue

27 12 2007

1.12.11 – Three years later I see this post and realize that it was just the beginning of a long road of challenge and change that would smooth me into the being I am today

What a year this has been. I’ll wrap it up in a mighty long future blog post, but I want to start with a preface of sorts. This year started with me being broke and unsettled (not quite homeless), not knowing what would happen from day to day and wondering if life was even worth living. The only thing I had to live for was my children. I felt like I was free falling, thrashing around, trying to grab on to anything I could to calm the madness in my head. On the outside I appeared relatively OK but on the inside there was a storm raging. Only my closest friends had any idea of what what going on.

I used to be angry. Now I’m happy. 2007 is the year that it all changed for me. For the first time in my life I have been able to embrace lasting success and happiness without the self defeating sabotage I usually thrust upon myself.

In a nutshell, divorce ****ed me up. It was a mental game of 52 card pickup. Everything in my life was tossed in the air and scattered. It was up to me to put things back together in the right order. I haven’t done things quite right but I have my sights set on what’s right.

I’m not living the most ideal life according to my ancestral expectations and values but to compare where I came from to where I am now, and where I am headed I see an exciting and wonderful life ahead. There are some circumstances in my life that are beyond my control and that are sort of keeping me in a holding pattern but I am happy to be here, holding on tight and enjoying the love of life I get with a woman who allows me to be the best me I can be. Good god this is sappy shit, but this is what I’ve become. I’m happy and in love and I expect 2008 to be a breakout year.

My blog stats this morning

20 12 2007

Today I took a look at the search engine terms used that landed people on my blog. Here they are below, look at the one in bold.

Search Engine Terms

These are terms people used to find your blog.


Search Views
ripstick 6
john edwards bastard child 3
most hilarious picture 3
8 year old penis 2
van halen t-shirts 2
girlsnap 2
kungfuchicks 2
small ripstick 1
john edwards love child validity 1

First, what the hell is anyone doing searching on ‘8 year old penis’? Second, what is in my blog that matched me up with those sick f**ks? Go ahead and Google it for yourselves, let me know what you find…or don’t.

What do the Democrats actually believe?

19 12 2007

I don’t really know for sure, I’m not sure they know for sure either, but I found this today and there is always a bit of truth in humor. Take a look and have a laugh.

Reposted from Ghostnote.net


  1. You have to be against capital punishment of murderers, but support abortion on demand.
  2. You have to believe that governments create prosperity by spending tax money.
  3. You have to believe that guns in the hands of law-abiding Americans are more of a threat than nuclear weapons technology in the hands of Iranians and North Korean communists.
  4. You have to believe that there would be no art without Federal funding.
  5. You have to believe that natural changes in the earth’s climate have nothing to do with global temperatures.
  6. You have to believe that gender roles are artificial, but being homosexual is natural.
  7. You have to believe that National Public Radio gives a fair and balanced presentation of the news.
  8. You have to believe that there would be no teachers and professors if schools had the ability to fire them for incompetence.
  9. You have to believe that ranchers, farmers and hunters don’t care about nature, but activists who have never been outside of an urban area do.
  10. You have to believe that self-esteem comes from talking about it, and not from doing things.
  11. You have to believe that Mel Gibson spent $25 Million of his own money to make ‘The Passion of the Christ’ for financial gain.
  12. You have to believe the NRA is bad because it supports certain parts of the Constitution, while the ACLU is good because it supports certain parts of the Constitution.
  13. You have to believe that taxes are too low, but ATM fees are too high.
  14. You have to believe that Margaret Sanger and Gloria Steinem are more important to American history than Thomas Jefferson, Thomas Edison, and Alexander Graham Bell.
  15. You have to believe that standardized tests are racist, but racial quotas and set-asides are not.
  16. You have to believe that Hillary Clinton is a very nice person.
  17. You have to believe that the only reason socialism hasn’t worked anywhere is because the right people haven’t been in charge.
  18. You have to believe that a President who preyed on a 20 year-old intern in the White House, then lied about it to the American people on national TV, deserves to be a beloved hero of our country.
  19. You have to believe that homosexual parades displaying transvestites in drag and bestiality are a proud sign of our diversity, and that all Christmas displays on public property should be illegal.
  20. You have to believe that illegal Democrat Party funding by the Chinese Government was ok because it served the best interest of the United States.
  21. You have to believe that this message is a part of a vast right wing conspiracy.
  22. You have to believe that it’s OK to give Federal workers the day off on Christmas, but it’s not OK to say ‘Merry Christmas’.

Playing the Love Child card

19 12 2007

Oh, the sweet smell of political scandal is in the air. And it’s being brought to us by our pals at the National Enquirer. I have a really hard time swallowing much of anything those people publish but occasionally, amid the Elvis sightings and alien abduction stories, they do dig up some rather steamy and tantalizing dirty laundry. I never know what to believe but after watching Men in Black I started thinking that maybe, just maybe these dirt diggers are on to something.

Sure, they run some completely sensational nonsense just to grab another buck fitty from soccer mom as she suffers through the checkout lines at the grocery store, but I really do wonder if they get ahold of the goods once in a while. They have been sued a number of times for going too far. I recall a love child claim that resulted in a lawsuit brought against them by a woman who they said is the father of Ted Kennedy’s bastard child. Kennedy, being an easy target, makes me wonder if they just ran the story for sales or if there was really anything to it. It doesn’t make much difference to though. When it comes to Kennedy scandals, Chappaquiddick seals the deal in my mind. No love child story can trump that one.

But now we’re on to newer and fresher gossip. I sit here wondering about the validity of the Enquirer’s latest love child brew involving John Edwards and a divorced film maker named Rielle Hunter AKA Lisa Druck.

The story goes that John Edwards hired former party girl, Rielle Hunter to document his rise to the presidency and that during the campaign they had a rendezvous or two involving a bit of the old in-out, in-out. Turns out that the forty-something Ms. Hunter is actually pregnant but the current story is that she is carrying the baby of Edwards’ ex Director of Operations, Andrew Young. In fact, Young has Ms. Hunter living in a luxurious home in his upscale, gated neighborhood and is supposedly working through the drama with his family and Hunter together. They both vehemently claim that the child is theirs together and that the rumors about her and Edwards are false. Talk about taking one for the team!

Months ago on the blogosphere there were stories circulating that John Edwards had a mistress by the name of Rielle Hunter, the videographer hired to follow him down the campaign trail. Of course all of that was denied by all parties accused, but when she suddenly turned up preggos out of wedlock shortly after the scandalous accusations you have to wonder to yourself, who is telling the truth?

Is the Enquirer just feeding us more salacious tabloid pablum or are we on to something here? Could Andrew Young be taking the fall to keep John Edwards scandal free during his hopeless run at the presidency? If it is true, how must his cancer stricken wife be taking all of it? Is Young’s wife and family complicit or are they just being used by the power hungry whores who will stop at nothing to save face and preserve their egos?

This is good stuff. In the end, however, it really makes no difference in the grand scheme and big picture because John Edwards is a pathetic power hungry munchkin who is really only good at combing his hair and arguing before an audience. It’s all smoke and mirrors. He has no chance of winning. Can you imagine, after it’s all said and done and the campaign is over and the dust settles, how they’re going to sort it all out?

If Rielle Hunter wants to make her mark as an artist she needs to set the cameras rolling while it all unfolds. This is fodder for some really meaty reality television or at least a future, behind the scenes, ‘where are they now’ type project. Edwards’ political career is over but he could springboard this scandal into a TV show that would bring more advertising funds to the table than Hulk Hogan or Ozzy Osbourne put together and he could use profits for another hopeless run in 2012.

The first amendment gets trampled on but it does bring us some fun once in a while!

Can Robin Hood save America?

14 12 2007

What is wrong with the Democrats? Do they honestly think they’re going to save America by collecting taxes on the rich and big corporations? In the recent debate there was more of the same garbage we always hear from them. Tax the rich! Big corporations, bad!

Another thing I’ve noticed is that rather than tackling the issue of a balanced budget they are resigning the argument and instead pointing the finger of blame at Bush by saying, “we’re not going to be able to dig ourselves out”.

What are their solutions to anything? They want to pull troops out of Iraq but nobody has come up with a plan of how that’s going to be accomplished. None of the democrats have given any hint of an interest in protecting our borders or continuing to secure America from the terrorist threat that they almost deny exists. They act as though Mexico belongs in the USA and that if we just play nice with the Palestinians that they will lose their lust for our destruction.

Their happy feelings and Eutopian dreams will just blend us all into that wonderful idealistic melting pot our elementary school teachers told us about. Then Hillary and Obama can go skipping hand in hand through the lily fields basking in the glory of their accomplishments. Who needs a savior when we’ve got the Democrats?

Politics and religion reprisal…

12 12 2007

Mike Huckabee is starting to scare me. OK, for the record, lest any of you wonder, I’m a Mormon and have been for most of my life. I’m not exactly the standard of purity at this point in my life, I may fall under the category of Jack Mormon, but that doesn’t change what I believe. I like Mitt Romney. Not because he is LDS, he just happens to be, and I find a lot of common ground with him.

I like Rudy Giuliani a lot too. The problem with him is his scandals and the mistakes he’s made. I mean, he abused his privilege as mayor while hiding his mistress and recommended Bernard Kerik to be homeland security secretary among other things. He was a great mayor and a great leader but I’m not so sure he is what America needs at this point in its history. I’m just not sure if he can rise to the challenges before us.

The real reason I’m making this post is because Huckabee is really starting to look kooky, and here’s why.

The man is an ordained Baptist minister and had a congregation of over 400,000 before his political career. He has founded his life on his beliefs in Christ and the teachings of the bible as he understands them. He is a man who would say that character counts. He is a man who will defend what he believes. He is a man who lives by his religion and wears it on his sleeve and shares it liberally. The problem I am having is that his campaign and former church are reluctant to release much, if any of his sermons for public review. Does anyone else smell something stinky there?

I don’t believe for one second that he has anything unethical or scandalous to hide. I think the reason there may be some reluctance is because sometimes the Southern born-agains get a little carried away in their exuberance and from time to time his preachings likely contained things that can easily be used against him to make him look like an extremist wacko. If he said those things as a minister for Christ why can he not share them now as a presidential candidate? Why do they become such separate issues now that his life is in the public eye?

What really pisses me off is that, while he tries to hide his potential to look silly, he deflects the spotlight of scrutiny onto Mitt Romney by asking in the New York Times, “Don’t Mormons believe that Jesus and the devil are brothers?”.

The answer to that question is an entirely separate issue. I do find it to be an incredible opportunity to explain the Mormon understanding of our literal relationship to God as His children to the world. Most mainstream Christian churches contend that Mormons are not Christian because we believe that Christ and Lucifer are spirit brothers. I find that to be ridiculous and really just laugh when I hear a statement like that tossed out with the intention of making us seem like blasphemous heretics.

For some reason people just find it abhorrent to think that God might have created the spirit that became Satan. Was Lucifer not an angel in heaven before the fall? Could God not have created him as a spirit child as he did me, you and Christ? Did God not create all things? Where in the bible does it clarify this point of doctrine?

I’d like to hear Huckabee explain where Lucifer came from and who created him if he expects Romney to do the same. Is it really an issue at the end of the day? What it really is, is just another notch in the belt of sensationalism for Huckabee and the mainstream, fundamentalist Christian right to say that Mormons are a non-Christian cult.

For Huckabee to try and embarrass Romney rather than open his vault and share the words he preached from the heart, his core beliefs, the teachings that were supposed to be salvation to the souls of hundreds of thousands, is cowardly.

The traveling panhandler

11 12 2007

I was reading DT’s blog today and it triggered a response in me to make this post.

Every night I drive home on I-80 and take the 1300 East, Sugarhouse exit. Every night there is at least one, sometimes two panhandlers standing at the intersection with a shitty looking, hand scrawled note on a torn piece of cardboard. The characters rotate from time to time but I do see the same folks over and over again. The one that really cracks me up is the guy whose sign reads “Traveling, anything will help”.

I see this guy day after day after day. I am tempted to stop and ask him about his destination and why the hell he doesn’t try to hitch a ride or at least make an attempt to travel farther than the intersection he occupies.

The panhandling racket is something else. I can’t believe people actually give money to those clowns. I’m not a heartless bastard by any means but so often I just want to shout “get a job!” to the bums. I mean, we live in the U.S. freaking A. How hard is it to find work for the day, enough for a sandwich, coffee and some bus fare?

Don’t beg from me with your smoothly shaven face, Old Navy fleece and your clean set of clothes. If you want me to even consider kicking a couple of duckets your way you’re going to have to pull at my heartstrings with a missing limb, some kind of mold growing on your face or something better than a ratty looking cardboard sign.

Get a job!

Democrats drooling patiently to break Huckabee’s glass jaw

11 12 2007

I hate to say I told you so (read my previous post). This was taken directly from the Drudge Report 12/11/2007.

Tue Dec 11 2007 10:27:53 ET


Democrat party officials are avoiding any and all criticism of Republican presidential contender Mike Huckabee, insiders reveal.

The Democratic National Committee has told staffers to hold all fire, until he secures the party’s nomination.

The directive has come down from the highest levels within the party, according to a top source.

Within the DNC, Huckabee is known as the “glass jaw — and they’re just waiting to break it.”

In the last three weeks since Huckabee’s surge kicked in, the DNC hasn’t released a single press release criticizing his rising candidacy.

The last DNC press release critical of Huckabee appeared back on March 2nd.

[DNC Press Release Attack Summary:

Governor Mitt Romney (R-MA) – 37% (99 press releases)
Mayor Rudy Giuliani (R-NY) – 28% (74)
Senator John McCain (R-AZ) – 24% (64)
Senator Fred Thompson (R-TN) – 8% (20)
Governor Mike Huckabee – 2% (4)]

In fact, as the story broke over the weekend that Huckabee said he wanted to isolate AIDS patients back in 1992, the DNC ignored the opportunity to slam the candidate from the left.

“He’ll easily be their McGovern, an easy kill,” mocked one senior Democrat operative Tuesday morning from Washington.

“His letting out murderers because they shout ‘Jesus’, his wanting to put 300,000 AIDS patients and Magic Johnson into isolation, ain’t even scratching the surface of what we’ve got on him.”

The discipline the Democrats have shown in not engaging Huckabee has earned the praise of one former Republican Party official:

“The Democrats are doing a much better job restraining themselves than the GOP did in 2003 when Howard Dean looked like he was on the brink of winning the nomination.”

A close friend to Huckabee explains: “Look, Mike is Hillary Clinton’s worst nightmare. They should be squirming.”


Politics and religion in the 2008 race

10 12 2007

Why Mike Huckabee will never be win the presidency

We often hear people say never to mix politics and religion. For people of faith, that is impossible. Those who don’t follow any particular religious tenets may be able to separate the two issues. But because their lives are not founded on a faith in God they misunderstand that faith inherently guides every ethical and moral decision. Therefore politics and religion go hand in hand.

The arguments for separation of church and state are taken to unreasonable extremes by factions who are opposed to religion based morality, faith in God and the structure that adherence to the ten commandments brings into the lives of Christians. Those on the outside looking in see it as restrictive. Those on the inside see it as safety and comfort in a world of turmoil.

That brings me to the recent happenings within the GOP presidential race. We have Mitt Romney, an LDS man with a squeaky clean record but with a controversial fath, and Mike Huckabee with a seriously right wing Christian history who tends to fan the flames that the left wingers carry for their hatred of the Christian right.

I think Mitt Romney’s recent address to us about his faith flipped a switch in Huckabee that has caused him to start speaking as a man of faith more than a politician. The problem I see for Huckabee is that his extreme right wing whacko tendencies are coming out and unfortunately for him, I see it being his demise.

I think Mike Huckabee is a good man with a good moral compass. The one thing I find difficult, and this goes for all of the ‘fundamentalist’ Christian types, is that they come down with such black and white, judgmental force on certain moral issues facing America today that they draw a dividing line rather than uniting people. Issues like abortion, homosexuality and sin in general make guys like that spew hellfire and brimstone rather than hope and unity.

America needs some change and I personally believe that America’s moral compass is broken, but the last thing that is going to help is someone from the Southern bible belt wagging his finger and telling everyone that we’re all in a spiritual darkness and that God is punishing us with earthquakes, floods and the plague of AIDS. That is not the job of a president and that is why he is never going to be the president.

Mitt Romney’s speech defending and clarifying his faith was one of the best political moves he could have made. Not only did it distinguish him as a man with a firm resolve for what is right and what is wrong but it made his most formidable opponent step up and promptly shoot himself in the foot with his whacky Christian right rhetoric.

I’m not saying I necessarily disagree with Huckabee’s views, but his heavy handed preaching is too rich for my blood and it’s definitely no way to win the GOP nomination. I sure don’t want that in my president and America would never go for it either. Can you imagine a guy like that in meetings with Ahmadinejad? Nukes would be flying in no time.

A president needs to be a leader, to uplift and bring people together. If Mike Huckabee wants a chance he has to stop ringing that division bell and show himself as a man of compassion and understanding. I can see him following in the footsteps of our favorite right wing Pats, Buchanan and Robertson, working the talking head circuit to pimp their latest writings on why America is doomed.

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